I am no more.

I don't know whats going on, on me?!
but...
everything which is related with him, it still makes my heart beating
so fast...

the girls know, what is it mean?
and so I am.
why am I being like that?
I don't know...

my feelings are complicated
disappointed, confused, surrendered, and the last worse is scared.
why the last things gonna be worse?
because I am scared, scared of my feeling become wild and lost on him again.

I don't want to be broken at this time
like I said before, I'm not ready yet.
I'm still trying to get up from all of these bullshit

to be honest...
I felt weak every I saw him,
even if I just remembered how he touched me.
who had strong emotional in each other
yeah we were...

maybe everybody can judge me "childish"
but I don't care at all

every single stupid problem has decision.
every single person has the different reason to make the decision.
and right now, I have it done.
done to make the decision.

and I...
will not easily trusting people anymore
especially the boys.




11:53 PM
blurry night, and the big question marks all in my head.
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