What is love?

There is always on my mind that fully in my head thinking of Love. And I have a complicated question of love, so what is love? Some people will answers "two people which stay together when they in the up and down situations" but for me, it's... ahh like I said before its very difficult to explain. Its more than staying together in the up and down situations, but it involving the emotions which is sincere to doing anything for the loved one. Both of them will do that for makes the loved one happy with every way that he/she through. The others of my mind is, "love is dumb" because really?! you don't know why you will doing anything you wants for that the loved one. How if the one you loves doesn't love you back?! its sounds like stupidity in yourself.

and the worse news is I do fall in love with someone. Someone who always close with me as a friend, since we were in the senior high school. Which is we had many memories we made. Actually I really tired with all of these stupid weirdo feelings. I wanna let it go but why it always sticky in me?! I wondering to myself, are will the all of these is end?! when???!!! I wanna happy too like you without me! I wanna happy too like before I meet you! why this is so hard? every pieces of time I try to kill my feeling, but I think it useless, its getting stronger and stronger than before i try. I really don't know what to do, i'm tired, very... but the best way is keep off you to meet me up. but you know? until now I do. I do fall in love with you, you know since when? Since I know you at the 10th grade which is I'm not sure with the feeling at the time. :)

you know Bloggie, it always nice to writes all of my entire life with you. although it just for a while.
thanks.

0.55 AM

trying to stand up from the fall

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Not poem just 3 AM thoughts

Sometimes I feel warm on you

sometimes I feel cold too on you

you know we are just a friend

so I know there's no the end

together makes a joke,

laughing extra loud to make a noise,

then we make the world for our self

being happy and ordinary is our shields

and when it going on by the time

suddenly something wrong happen with me

I'm literally convincing myself for know

that I don't to you 

but I do...

I do expecting to see you around

I do hoping my eyes can stare at

I do always imagine "if I were in your warm-tight hug" and last 

the dangerous thing's I do likes you...

no no no I don't..!

I can't accepting my feeling, 

but this is a naturally thing...

the thing that I don't even know...

I don't want something just like this... :(

there is no help...

and i'm gonna try this feeling's flowing by.

the confusing night, Jakarta.

12.14 AM

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Masih Ada Kesempatan Menjadi Lebih Baik

Setiap orang memiliki kesempatan,

entah dalam bentuk apa mereka mengambil pilihan,

iya iya atau tidak tidak dalam memutuskan,

namun diantara itu pasti terselip adanya keraguan.

Berfikir berputar-putar,

di ujung sudut ruang sembari bersandar,

sambil jari menari-nari di papan kata,

mencari-cari pilihan kata yang tepat untuk di tata.

Pada intinya jika hanya berfikir itu sama saja,

sama saja membuang waktu tersisa,

lebih baik memantapkan tekad dengan sekuat baja,

agar kesempatan tidak terbuang sia-sia.

Inilah saatnya menjadi yang lebih baik!

Kota penuh perjuangan, Jakarta.
1.36 AM
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Just let you....

I let you,

to be in my world,

I let you,

also to be in your world.

at the time I remember,

we were loved to singing together,

we were watching movie lil bit longer,

we were cuddling on the sofa like a lover.

we both just let these all like a flows,

happy without the sorrow,

then tomorrow,

my heart stuck by the arrow.

thus, I believe to you,

I really care about you,

but, I don't know whats happen,

and now you've changed

changed, like "we are nothing",

nothing.. nothing happened between us,

you said "we are just a friend right?"

"yea, you're right" I reply to you with the biggest lie

perhaps, it wont makes us feel odd,

so i'm pretend to be okay,

everything we've done just like a passed,

that literally i'm dying inside.

And now I should let you go,

go as far as you can go,

I know this is not the right time,

to have you to be mine.

In the cold, cold night. Jakarta.

1:14 AM

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